I’ve been pretty dang grumpy lately, grumpier than usual, at least. I’ve always been grumpy, but it’s starting to be too grumpy, I think, and not in a funny way. I’m too worried about money and the future and work and friends. I’ve gotten worse at communication, I read far too much into the thoughts of others and I assume bad intentions. I judge quickly and get frustrated. I can be opaque in my wording and thick in my own understanding. 

I used to get into so many arguments when I was younger, mostly because I was a prideful jerk, but now I’m totally out of practice and most conversation feels more difficult than it really ought.

Maybe I just feel worse about things because I’m more keen to observe my own failures, or maybe I am actually worse, or maybe a bit of both. I think it’s a bit of both, either way It’s something I really need to work on.