I‘ve been trying to figure out what exactly to do with myself for a while now. Start a business, do a side hustle, change careers, lean in harder, who knows? I can’t become a monk, I’ve got too much love for Roby and Abby, and I don’t think I’d be a good monk anyways, even if I didn’t have that light in my life.

Given that light, all I really want to do is projects to make Roby’s life better. In a few months when she has a bit more dexterity, that’ll mean doing proejcts with her, to teach her. If I could do only that...

For instance, I want to put a design on this new lighter I got. I was thinking of doing a little icon but I think that’s wrong, so Ill do some words. My laser engraver doesn’t mark it, so I might have to paint it as a resist, laser-engrave through the resist, then etch it with acid. Imagine dissecting and learning from every step of that process from the art, to the digitization, to the chemistry, cleanup, jig-making...all of if. Dissect it more and you can learn geometry, economics, even poetry if you write something nice on it.

That is the smallest, most insignificant of projects.

Imagine building a roost for some turkeys, which I hope to do tomorrow. cutting down the trees with a chainsaw, designing the things, moving the birds, calculating their cost, figuring out the way the wind blows, the history of the breed. Looking deeply enough at anything will show you a bit of infinity.

I think I could start a little home-school program here. With 5-8 kids, Roby included...I’d never be a rich man but I’d have enough food and rent and all I’d have to do for it is spend time with the person I love the most in the world. That sounds like a good enough deal to think a bit more deeply about.