︎ zazen bozo ︎


︎︎︎ May 9th, 2023 ︎︎︎




My politics are mostly left leaning, mostly, yet the life I lead is something of a right wing wet dream; I have the blonde, blue-eyed partner eager to have children, stay at home, garden and tend the animals. 

I think a lot of things in life can’t be tried for, they can’t be forced. The sweaty dweebs who obsess over the trad-life in the forest want it so badly, they look at it so closely, that they can’t actually see it, let alone grasp it. 

I don’t think this traditional life is anything I ever set out overtly towards. I had day dreams of wrap around porches and gardening and forests, but not so much of families and solitude.


The older I get the more I believe faith to be the central pillar of the universe as it exists for humans. What is it that Oscar Wilde said? 

if you know what you want to be, then you inevitably become it - that is your punishment, but if you never know, then you can be anything.


Oscillating between knowing and not is the path, I think. I know what I want to be in the morning, and maybe a bit in the afternoons, when I’m lifting rocks, but by the time I’m laying down for bed, I feel like I’ve never known anything at all. That’s how I keep the dream(s) alive.

Bozo