As it has become inreasingly clear that spending time with children is how I’d like to spend the precious time I have been given, I’ve been having more conversations about the discovery of that feeling and desire. 

Strange as it may seem, this is not a universal desire. The knowledge that children are, to a one, living saints and  the shortest and surest path to understanding God and his relationship with us, does not appear to be as obvious to some as it is to me. 

Something many people who do not sahre this love will ask me is when I discovered it in myself. For a while I supposed it was when Roby was born, I hadn’t ever spent as much time with a child, I had never had as much responsibility. But now, a year and a half or so out, I don’t think that’s quite right. 

Roby, and all the time I’ve spent with her hasn’t revealed how I feel, it has changed it. She has changed the shape of my heart and my head, and changing the shape of the things we feel and think and love with, changes how they recieve our feelings and thoughts and love the way changing the shape of a lens changes how it recieves and ultimately understands light.