Attending church has been a good thing for me and for Abby and, I hope, for Roby. It is a difficult thing to explain. I think a younger version of my self might have made some attempt at philosophy or logic and Truth. It’s Good because it’s True. And while I think that’s the case, I don’t think it makes for an especially compelling argument, at least not to most people. 

To me now, the only argument is of example and virtue, of how I’ve been improved and how I’ve grown and been changed. Maybe it’s not obvious. To some of my church friends that change is apparently quite evident. I have no idea wether or not it is to my friends outside of that institution. 

I looked up some churches in my brother’s neighborhood in California. I have no idea wether or not he’ll go or if he might benefit from going, if he did. But I was amazed by the number of churches. There are two orthodox churches within walking distance. One’s coptic with some of the strangest and most beautiful icons I’ve ever seen, and the other’s Antiochian and sorta Greek. There’s a strictly Greek church about 5 minutes driving away and an OCA church that’s pure gorgeous seventeen minutes away. That’s the one I’d recommend. 

But I’m biased. 

I’m not sure how I’d like to be evangelized to, really. There are different points in my life where different things would have worked. But one thing present in each epoch of my hungering for the Truth is an eagerness for earnestness, a need for honesty and simplicity and calrity and purpose. 

Maybe that’s why that song Havana Burning is so dang funny to me.

If someone would simply point me in the direction of the truth, well, I’d run to it. It doesn’t even need to eb the truth Directly, like the crystalline thing itself, it can just be a group of dirty fools looking for it in the jungle. 

After speaking a bit with my brother, I think that’s a lot of what I was missing, I think it’s a lot of what our society is missing. it’s not the truth, it’s the mere desire for it, the act of looking for it. Just looking for it is far more than most of my secular friends can boast.
God bless them, they don’t think it even exists.