Roby rules.
I feel such incredible joy every time I see her, every time I see her do anything. She is such a pleasure to spend time with and to ponder and to watch. She brings an energy of pure boisterousness and good humor to every silly little thing from falling over to climbing up a chair far too big for her to smashing a cup to the ground to really, really insisting that she eat herself or drink herself or read herself.

She is the best, and I love doing anything with her. We went to Walmart today and it was incredible to watch all the people oo and aa at how fantastically endearing and sweet she is.

She has been a new part of my life of such incredible sweetness and purpose and joy that it is difficult to describe. 

Simultaneously, every single other aspect of my life has gotten worse in the past year. Financially, socially, creatively, physically...maybe not spiritually, but Roby and my spiritual life are very connected right now.

obviously there’s a lesson in there, and I have learned a lot over this past year. I’ve been vastly improved, I think. But wow, it has been difficult, and I don’t really expect conditions to improve. The only thing I can do is improve my reaction to it, but that’s tough. 

It’ll continue to be tough. 

They’re all gifts, these lessons. To improve myself and to learn. It’s better than sliding through life like butter on a pan.