Certain things we know are bad for us. It takes little time and little discernment for that badness to be obvious. It’s the obviousness of things and our ability to make it -not- obvious that fascinates me. I’m a pro at making things not obvious, to my self first, and to clients, second. How do you think I learned to do it?

What I love about C.S. Lewis and Kierkegaard is that they think Christianity, while perhaps not obvious to choose, is, once in it, quite obvious in how to do well. I agree with them. Any and all confusion within how to be good, within that particular philosophy, is clear as crystal. We just confuse ourselves with stunning efficiency. 

I know the game I play is bad for me. I can almost feel the better life on the other side of having quit. But I like the game, it represents more succintyl the classical concept of the world than maybe the world does, at least to me. 

I think I knew quite quickly that it was not a good thing, but still I have not quit. 

And there are people currently in my life who I believe I knew not to be good almost imediately, yet I did not have the confidence or the speed or the wisdom to quit them, either. I’ll be quit of them faster than I’ll be quit of this game, and I think that’s probably Okay.